ok so i'm like stupid and lame and a dork, and there's this website: craigslist, and it's basically like a giant online classified section, you can find anything from free dvds, to a bandmates, to a girlfriend. I'm a trainwreck when it comes to talking to/approaching girls, and I don't find anyone that seems interesting most places I go. So, I've been giving it a shot, I met my last gf off the site, and it's a pretty cool way to meet people for common interests and their personality, than on their physical appearance. Anyway, the last few romantic endeavors I had wound up being complete disasters, and I'm kind of just giving up (a big part of why I'm returning to ffxi >.>) but, I had to say one last word. In case she was out there. Enjoy!


Dear Soul Mate - 25

I don't know why I ever thought I'd find you here, I figured, if I'm here seeking, then maybe you were too. It rained today and I thought about you. In fact, when it started last night I went out on my back porch and there was this cold pretense in the air ~ sweater weather. Our weather. And as I trail my fingers through my hair and off the side of my face... your slight graces whisper comfort like subtle perfection. How I wish it was you. How I wish I could find you, but the truth is; I don't see you in the eyes of anyone. Those blazing eyes wide with wonder and understanding and sprinkled with clandestine melancholy. Those eyes that turn resentfully away from mine, rising contempt and frustration within my awaiting heart. I want to give you up, your dreams and fantasies: light-headed afternoons basked on petals and sunlight. Ours would be a union to make angels weep. A match so true and right that all the buzzing seams would somehow curl up and fringe into one steady notion: love. Our accomplishments, interests, hobbies, and secrets. Our dreams into a burst of complimented happiness. Our time and lives passing us by, your face is a flash in a car ride, a voice whispered 10,000 miles wide. Just hold me back, or let me run.

~Me

Jim one sec lol someones coming

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The mikey's have a plan. Djay isn't all powerful.

here in this game, its kinda hard to see peoples true nature. Finding a girl here? I wish you luck, we need to go out and get drunk out of our asses lol.

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Job 10: 20
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If I lived near mikey I would seriously hang out with him all the time.

Mikey I swear Im coming to NYC one day.

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RIP Shiloh

mikey has the best advice ever lol.

btw did u really write that jim?

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Be Here Now

seriously yarr i freaken love you man, if you lived near me you'd probably be one of my best friends

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Job 10: 20
The mikey's have a plan. Djay isn't all powerful.

First Yarr has to sneak over the boarder.

y would he have to sneak? jes drive and come legaly, say youve got family in NY

Im sure mikey could give me some tips on how to sneak into america


ooooo snap

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RIP Shiloh

sure, jes pretend ur not canadian, and dont say "eh'"

That was a burn. wow.

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1. Mikey, true trying to meet someone on the internet sounds crazy, however, my ex (the one in brooklyn) and i met online and we had a relationship that lasted 4 years, and she is probably the best gf i ever had to date. I guess that's why I remain hopeful, besides what's the other option? meeting some drunk slore at a bar...speaking of which we really do need to get together and get zonked off our asses, i can only begin to imagine the fun that = mikey + alcohol

2.Zadan, yeh i did write that you like it?

3. here's the actual posting: http://newyork.craigslist.org/lgi/m4w/65880418.html and i already got an e-mail but the girl sounds like a total drag /sigh

4. Yarr, stop spamming my threads with your unrelated drivel!!

lol now im gonna fall for you, stop!

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RIP Shiloh

Thats your second strike buddy ...

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The mikey's have a plan. Djay isn't all powerful.

Do you mind me asking what happened between you guys?
I'm sorry to hear you both split. Do what i do stay alone and blame yourself for never saying anything. LOL i joke around but i walk a very lonely path. I came out just like my mom always alone /;

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I'm sorry to hear that man, I know what it's like, sometimes I feel like everytime I start to love someone life has a way of making sure they wake up one day and find me repulsive, die, or turn into someone I don't want to spend time with. I guess I agree with the never saying anything part to an extent, I only feel regretfull about not approaching more women I was attracted to. I still suffer from that ah guess. If there is some comfort to be taken in knowing other's know your pain, than my friend know that I do.

The letter was written as like a letter to my soul mate who I've never met.. or maybe I have, sometimes I like to think that your soulmate is one free spirit that lingers and drifts into each new friendship and relationship, so in that way it is also significant to a few women in my life, one maio, of who I've spoken about on here, and everyone got sick of hearing about lol. Though, I miss her now the most out of all of them really.

Another being Jaclyn the one i was with for 4 years, since you asked.. We were never really meant to be together, it was a chance encounter that began over a common music taste in eachother's aol profiles. I was a 20 yr old alternative kid who didin't drive, didn't go to college or have any college experience, worked a dead end part time job in retail and hung onto delusions that someone somewhere would see my writing or art and turn me into someone rich and famous. I guess the marijuana helped in that dept.

At any rate, there was this instant attraction when i first met her, she was gorgeous, and perfect: compassionate, funny, smart, open-minded, and just so sweet. It was meant to be a summer fling and she tried so hard to put up that wall.. we dated for 4 years but were never actually boyfriend and girlfriend as far as labels go. However, we saw something in eachother and had gone through so much together and we held on, I still remember those nights when she would call me drunk at 4 in the morning professing her undying love for me. It was good times.

But all good things must come to an end. I tried hard, to lose weight, to get a fulltime job.. I started driving, got my license, I was workign freelance, but it was the wake of 911. She graduated from NYU with her masters in speeach language pathology and started working for the nyc school district straight out of college for like 60k a year to start.

She was looking for someone she could settle with in a year, someone who had their shit together way more than me (who couldn't even find a fulltime job). She never actually told me that was the reason, but she drifted away, our once monogamous best friendship with benefits or whatever it was dissolved into a booty call with both of us clutching at straws to rebound and move on. Eventually, she just found someone else she was interested in and it was over, it happened a few times, but this last time she said, "and i think we should take time off from eachother too" and i knew she would be gone for good.

Last thing I ever said to her was this trite angry e-mail where I pretty much assassinated every physical, emotional, and mental insecurity she had, all because she couldn't give me a straight answer as to why and when she started to think i wasn't "the one" anymore. And even though it's been 2 years since i've seen or heard from her, sometimes someone will remind me of her so much, and it still kills.

so that's that.. since you asked.
sorry about the long post.

Jimbean is perhaps the most emotionally rich tarutaru i've ever seen

aw I love these posts so much <3

I met my one of my best friends online, when I was 14(I'm now 20 btw). He introduced me to pretty much everyone that I know. My life would not be the same if I had never taken the chance to meet him :D He was probably one of the few people that ever actually really cared about me, and was always there for me... almost a year ago he died do to complications after a car accident. I miss him so much.. and he effected my life so much... sad
anyway.. I don't think meeting people on the internet is a bad thing.. cause sometimes you can meet some really great people that will change your life :D

I like what you wrote. here is something that I picked up through my interweb travels..

"As you move through this, try to remember. Storms cover people's eyes and sometimes they can't breathe. Bones ache and no one can move and there are silences, like scars, across people's mouths. And maybe you feel it too; pressing, searching. Don't give in and you'll live. Don't give in and I will find you." - Written on a napkin in San Francisco.

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The lovers, the dreamers, and me.

I'm the type of guy that feels i can't feel love for anyone anymore, my hearst been broken so many times it just can't really. Only thing i hate is seeing others suffer and feel alone. If it means anything to you jim i'd take it away if was able to. If i had some type of magical power to do it lol

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The mikey's have a plan. Djay isn't all powerful.

wow jim. I actually sat down and read this posts slowly this time. I can't say much to take that pain away. This girl i'm like totally in love with is getting married to my best friend this summer. Ii'm such a pussy man, i i can't say anything. i umm don't really know what to say or what to think anymore. Only thing that stops me from saying anything, is the fact that she getting married to a friend. And i know that he'll take care of her . I'm gonna go crawl under a rock . pfft i hate people

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/comfort Mikey and Jimbean....love sucks, thats why i dont deal with it anymore...had a girl for 3 years...she lived with me and everything...we were doing great and i had never been happier...till one day i came home from work and all her stuff was gone...she left me a note saying she wasnt happy anymore...come to find out she got drunk the night before and slept with a friend of mines...needless to say she's with him now..fuckin bitch...but what im tryin to say is i feel for ya both...

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this turned into the saddest post ever, I'm sorry that you guys have had to experience and in Mikey's case is still having to experience such hardships and sadness. But don't turn bitter, because then you could cut yourself off from the one person that actually deserves your love. In the big picture you will be the better person for continually living life to the fullest by wearing your heart on your sleeve and facing all the ups and downs that come with that experience. At least, that's the way I'd like to look at it. Just know that time heals all wounds and as dark as things get, life always has a way of throwing in those amazing times. Wheneverthe issue of happiness and sadness comes up I'm always reminded of this Khalil Gibran passage from a book called The Prophet:

THEN a woman said, Speak to us of Joy and Sorrow.

And he answered:

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.

And the selfsame well from which your
laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your
tears.

And how else can it be?

The deeper that sorrow carves into your
being, the more joy you can contain.

Is not the cup that holds your wine the very
cup that was burned in the potter's oven?

And is not the lute that soothes your
spirit, the very wood that was hollowed
with knives?

When you are joyous, look deep into
your heart and you shall find it is only that
which has given you sorrow that is giving
you joy.

When you are sorrowful look again in
your heart, and you shall see that in truth
you are weeping for that which has been
your delight.

Some of you say, "Joy is greater than
sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is
the greater."

But I say unto you, they are inseparable.

Together they come, and when one sits
alone with you at your board, remember
that the other is asleep upon your bed.

Verily you are suspended like scales be-
tween your sorrow and your joy.

Only when you are empty are you at
standstill and balanced.

When the treasure-keeper lifts you to
weigh his gold and his silver, needs must
your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.

read more: http://chem.wayne.edu/~ikobrsi/gibran/p ... rophet.htm marriage is an especially cool passage too

and P.S. check the new siggy lol

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Sorry to spoil the moment...

Jimbean your avatar is ruining the forum.

fixed :D

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The road can sometimes be pretty lonely, yeah.. but there's plenty of interesting things to see and do and plenty of interesting people to meet along the way - I learned to cope with the non relationship thing a long time ago. I just don't sweat it anymore. I used to really want to be in one (and was in one for almost 2 years)... there's other important things in life that you can still enjoy, so letting something like this get you guys down is silly.

Even if this is just the internet, don't forget that you guys have some awesome friends here (among other places also) :P

Stuff like this is what sets a lot of people into depressed moods... or rather, it's usually the start (or the entire cause), so just don't let it get ya down. What's done is done.. can't look back on the past, need to look ahead to the future, still have plenty of good things that can come your way. Besides, most of the time, things like this have a way of working themselves out.