I dont know, you really wanna find out?

Follow the white rabbit, and choose the right pill. red or blue.

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all that angst for nothing!

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The lovers, the dreamers, and me.

just be sure not to say "oh my godzz, like double-u tee eff" out loud, and you'll be o.k., also wait a long while before mentioning that you have ever played FF

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RIP Shiloh - I'll never forget ya

Jim this will make you feel better. I went on a date to some carnival with this girl yesterday night. The carnival had all kinds of rides that spin you around upside down or w/e, and on one of the rides I threw up all over the place. HAHA, what a fucking disaster.

After the date, which I couldn't wait to be done with, she sent me a text message that said "I still wish you would have kissed me on the ferris wheel ride." I didn't even want to touch her all night I felt so gross. Anyways point of the story: girls are weird, and even losers can sometimes come out OK.

omg thunder! /comfort ; ; that sucks so fucking much. But that's sweet that she was cool about it, you must be a stud irl my situation is just one of those where you're like "wait.. this person really likes me?!?" I'm just kind of in shock atm about it all.

whisp - i'll keep that in mind and avoid all the leet haxxzorz speak while i'm around her (as best i can anyway) and yess there shall be no mention of any mmorpgs or affliates of any mmorpgs.. at least not for awhile

mint - i know! lol i'm sorry really thought that rejection was coming.. was trying to force myself to go through it before it actually happened so it wouldn't hurt when it did

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Hey Jim, I can understand where you are coming from. I'm also a closet hopeless romantic with an externally protective shell (Protect IV ftw!) Both of my younger siblings are married, as well as a large majority of my friends. Basically what you posted on here was what alot of people think, but never admit to thinking to anyone else. However, in my vast experience, (I just turned 30 lol) I would have to agree with Mil on several points. You gotta have faith in yourself, even if its an act to a certain extent, exude some self-confidence. Also, you have to come to terms with yourself. As long as you can be honest to yourself, even about your strengths, that will certainly be a step in the right direction.

Basically, I feel like when the time is right, I will meet the person that I will spend the rest of my life with. Until that time, I'm going to just go with the flow, and try not to WORRY about it too much, lol. I'm also working on me, so I'm ready when the time comes.

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LS: TheMonarchy
The Bearded Hume Player/Coach for the Washington Generals
"I got the fever, and the only prescription is more cowbell!"

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Heya Orig, thanks for take the time to read and reply man. It's always nice when someone can relate to how you're feeling (especially when it's something as sensitive as this where, as you said, most people wouldn't feel comofrtable admitting or talking about so freely). At least I know I'm not the only person left out there that still thinks there may be hope, and full respect to you for keeping your hopes and moral ideals and not selling out on it (because it's much more weaker to do that imo).

As for me now, I'm really just in utter shock, I spoke to her for like 4 or 5 hours on the phone tonight and it whizzed right by. All I could think about was how awesome she was in so many different aspects. She's supposed to head over here tomorrow and I just keep thinking that i'm going to wake up and this will have all been a dream. All I can do now is try my hardest to just enjoy it and not sabotage it with my over-active imagination. Even if everything falls to shit tomorrow this has still been one of the most amazing and exciting weekends in a long long long time

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